I'm dizzy.
I'm sitting still and the room keeps moving.
I'm not sick.
I think maybe I'm just losing it.
I'm afraid once again that maybe I was right.
That maybe the end of the season is closer than I thought.
That the dream...the hope... was once again wasted on me.
I know I only asked for a daily promise of tomorrow, and when I asked for that it seemed ok at the time....but I think I really wanted a promise for always....
I just want everything to STOP.
I want the thing that's hurting me to go away, but I feel like my heart can't handle that.
It's one in the morning and I'm so confused.
I feel like i'm running in circles chasing something that wouldn't chase me if I ran the other way.
I'm not making sense but my fingers keep typing away at the keys...
click
click
click
click
If I wait to long the silence scares me so I keep typing and whispering to myself to fill the silence.
I have nothing to say.
I have no one to tell......
That tonight I'm afraid.
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